"Hello"! It was dark and on the beach last night as I went for a long quiet walk so the two voices surprised me. Hello I called back to the black lumps on the sand. "How are you"? I walked over to the two voices and there in the dark moonlight were two very attractive 24 (so they said) year old Viet Namese women. One very drunk and flirty and the other sober but just as flirty. Now, the average guy would have thought one of two things at this point. 1) Don't pinch me now as I like the way these dreams usually end. Or 2) I don't remember being killed or suffering a heart attack but all those good deeds paid off and I make it to heaven! But I've already mentioned-OK discussed thouroughly and at length- how, via face cremes and astringents, I'm not the average guy. My first thoughts were confusion as I tried to figure what kind of scam these girls were going to work on me. That lasted all of 60 seconds as, in under a minute the drunk girl grabbed my hand and held it to her face. "I want to be your girlfriend, will you be my boyfriend"? I told her I already have girlfriend. "But you not married?" I tried to explain that it didn't matter because I was in..."but I love you, you no love me?" The bus trip earliet that day took around 4 hours to go about 100 miles. In that short span I saw 7 to 10 billboards along the way reminding people of the dangers of HIV in Viet Nam. They were all in Viet Namese which is as legible to me as Thai or Chinese, but the graphics were clear enough. The cartoon figure of Mr. Happy Condom (or the poor emaciated cartoon HIV victim who obviously hadn't shaken hands with Mr. Happy C.) were effective reminders to wear a helmet. Those billboards flashed through my thick head as I realized that these weren't just friendly girls...they were friendly working girls. I explained that I liked them very much but no, I didn't love them. The drunk one let go of my hand, pouted severely and promptly passed out with her head on a coconut. So much for my sexy animal magnatism that I initially thought drove these girls to lusty desire. But it left me to have a conversation about love with the conscious one. It went something like this. "I love you". "How can you love me when you don't even know me?" "We go back to your bungalow now"? "Look I'm 44 and you're 24, I'm an old man". "In Viet Nam" she said smoothing out the sand and writing the numbers for emphasis, "man 64, woman 24"! We both laughed and I wrote the number 28 saying "no older than this for you". She laughed again but in a different way that let me know she knew it should be, yet won't be, true here. We soon ran out of topics for conversation as my two words of Viet Namese (hello and thank you) can only get you so far (but in this situation far enough!) and her English was limited to talking about her profession...kind of like a stock broker or a Boeing engineer. Every sentence led back to my bungalow somehow and she was as good as any hungry street hawker in Bangkok. "I have a girlfriend", "yes but you no married". "I'm too old", "no you good age". "I can't be your boyfriend I leave in 2 days". "You be my boyfriend 2 days then". We were going in a circular route to nowhere but laughing a lot getting there. It was time to pull out my trump card. "My sister is in my bungalow so we can't go back there". When she finally understood, after repeating the odd sentence 3 times, it was like a misfire, a sputtering of an engine and she had no quick comeback...no instant response. At the moment she realized she had wasted the past 15 minutes trying to sell herself to me something changed. Not a hardening or pouting attitude, nor an angry huffing off in frustration(both of which I expected). She softened and smiled and relaxed. Just then she looked behind me as 3 more potential customers were walking by. As they passed I heard one of them give me the "MM-HMM". You know the sound. Accent on the HMM as the inflection rises on it at the same time. It's the sound every mother gives to every kid upon the discovery of some sneaky behavior. That sound that so economically delivers maximum guilt. It had the exact effect on me as if my own mom had said it. I wanted to run after them shouting "no, wait, I only wanted to talk to them"! Thus buurrying myself further. Wisely I didn't. But I did feel a shame that was too strong for the crime of only talking to 2 young pretty girls who just happened to be prostitutes.
I said my goodbyes and shook their hands with a friendly "I like you very much, you are both (no I don't love you!!) very pretty". The walk back to the Bungalow ( and Samantha has no idea how much I appreciate her being there for me-asleep) had me asking the question youv'e probably been asking for the past few paragraphs. Why did I hang out and chat with these girls once I knew what they were after? The answer isn't as clean or simple as I wish it were, but that doesn't make it any less true. On the one hand, being raised a bleeding heart liberal makes me believe that people are basically good, and make bad decisions...usually a lot of them. Except for the ultra right wing conservative republicans that is, who are basically bad people that make bad decisions. Part of me wanted to hang out with these Viet Namese girls and just get to know a piece (no not that piece gutterheads!) of this lifestyle/culture/desperation. To make contact with them in such a different way than they are used to...a human way, as fellow travellers on this path of life. On the other hand, being raised a bleeding heart liberal means that I have no guiding moral compass...wishy-washy or Godless in the parlance of the Bush doctrine spin doctors. Chosing my morality by the way it feels at the time. This part of me (yes, that part gutterheads) was very intrigued by sitting next to two young pretty women who would have sold me an instant of bliss and a lifetime of shame. Was I testing myself? Was I playing with a razors edge trying not to get cut? Or was I just experiencing a moment in south Viet Nam that was weird and fun and uncomfortable? Yes to all of the above! The titilation died rapidly when early on I realized no matter how thrilling or exciting or taboo, I can't separate sex from love. I already knew this intellectually and it was nice to have the feeling confirmed. At that point my choice to engage in conversation (if that's what you call continually refusing to have sex) was about connection. Not much of a connection to be sure. But maybe the next time they hear the phrase "I'm American" they won't instantly recoil. Maybe they'll look back fondly on a moonlit night in January and laugh at the funny homo they met who travels with his sister!
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or indigestion. james, enjoying your stories. having an interest in your fellow human, regardless of their circumstances, hardly makes you godless and w/o moral compass. jesus would have been a pretty big flop if he just hung out with rotarians. the guys you should be looking for are the russian roulette gamblers from "the deer hunter". peace, paul
Ah, brings back fond memories of the Philippines and all the pretty little girls saying "I love you, no shit."
Wise beyond your years young man.
funny how we project, and I just bet the girls had a different spin on what transpired. Anyhow, sounds like everyone had fun for a long tine...Love, M
How lucky I am to be with someone who is not the "average guy"! You live with such compassion and integrity, although I am sure you really confused those girls. And although I am here in the states instead of Vietnam, I know what it is like to be "fresh meat!" :)
LOVE!
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